Thank you for answering the call of God to take care of His people. We understand your challenges and struggles as a pastor, shepherd or bishop. But I Thessalonians 5:24 says faithful is He that calleth you, who also will do it. God is with you and will never leave you nor forsake you.
Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your  toil is not in vain in the Lord. I Corinthian 15:58
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Galatians 6:9
We want to encourage you to persist and continue to serve God. God loves you!